I HATE it when everytime we was happy,i hurt euu.
i hate that everytime we was happy,i hurt euu.
i hate it!!!!!!!
i hate myself alot.
i know that euu gonna say all this that imma gonna say is acting.
everything from me was acting to euu.
all those tears.
i can even drown in it..
but it was a lie to euu.
everything was a lie to euu.
i said i love euu alot.
when we stead,
4th month i in love with euu not him.
then now euu pushing me back to him.
i said i donwan.
understood?
i say i donwan.
if i don love euu,
i wouldnt beg euu on the floor,
i wouldnt cry like a mad,
i wouldnt cry just 5mins and
change to happy fast for euu not to hear me crying.
i know..
all this to euu are just bloody acting..
all.
all of this to euu is just a piece of shitt.
i know..
i had never made euu happy..
never..
all those laughing that i made,
was just laughed from euu fakely.
all those jokes that we laugh and did together..
all to euu is just a joke..
all those laughther we had together..
all wasnt real to euu wasnt it..?
euu said that i am a slut.
euu said that i am a prostitude.
euu slapped me in m face.
euu push my face away when i wanna kiss euu.
i know that i am utterly rubbish..
but i have my feelings..
all because of my past..
all because of me..
i had to renshou my boyfren to love other ppl..
i had to renshou when euu call me a slut,
i had to renshou when euu said that i should take money for wut bloody service..
i had to renshou when euu slapped me in the face like i am a begger..
i had to renshou all the insult..
i had to..
yah,
euu are right.
i not happy jiu break up.
but i donwan..
cos i know..
i make euu suffer..
now is my turn.
i no need to suffer.
but i am sure..
i cant do anything without euu..
euu can say me anything..
beat me up..
but i thought euu would never do it..
its just that i am so afraid euu wont love me anymore.
EUU CALL ME THEN SAY I LAUGH!!!!!!?
i crying euu say i laugh.
how awesome are euu?
wut euu wanna report?
report wut?
wut knn?
euu wan kan mummy issit?
i just want to be with euu.
why must euu make things so difficult?
i said i wait and tahan jiu wait and tahn larh.
why must purporsly make things difficult?
say let the god decide.
now wut?
wanna break up with me,
jiu call police..?
why must liddat..?
whyy??????????????????????????????????????
i know everything is i do that but why must treat me liddat??????
WHYWHYWHYWHYWHYWHYWHY!!!!!!???????????????//////


-Chloe.

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