Today..
School..
Damn tired..
So sickish..
Then went home..
Cant sleep..
Wait for hubbie..
Then chat..
That name came out of his mouth. :'(
Then I got angry..
Haishh..
Cry to nap..
Wake..
Then hubbie's turn nap..
I watch tv..
Said hello hello to phone.
No answer.
Call mama in law..
Then she say hubbie sleeping.
Euu also go sleep bah.
Oh.. :(
Then first time do hw..
No praise..
No nothing..
I am crying again.,
Think of that I love euu sent to Eunice from hubbie..
My heart is cracking again..
I had to beat it.. :'(
Until I die..
I think of this my heart aches..
Afew times because other things I cried..
I just need euu to hughug me tightly..
And tell me euu love me..
And never let go don matter how I struggle..
Let me cry..
Just wipe my tears..
Not one sentence from euu..
"shut up,cry means euu love him."
Not liddat..
I wanna cry in front of euu so that euu know how much it hurts to miss euu..
Not shutting up and cry when nobody's around..
Its going to be our anniversary soon..
2 more days..
I have my plan..
Let me schedule it..
Our anniversary,
I won't cry in front of euu anymore.
I won't show how much I wanna cry anymore..
I will be happy in front of euu.
Regardless place and time.
I will slap myself if I cry.
I won't give euu troubles anymore...
I won't tell euu how much I need a hug anymore..
I won't tell euu not to talk to girls anymore..
Cos I donwanna name it Everytime.
Who euu talk to,
Wut euu say to them,
Euu know.
Heaven know.
No need to lie.
I can't afford to do other things.
This is the best not to
Be a burden to euu.
I will have my feelings to myself.
Not frens,
Not family.
Me. Alone.
I will show everybody.
I am fine.
I can suffer.
Euu said that I had to.
I will. :')

-Chloe.
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