我是疯了才会要你关心我，对吧？
收到朋友的简讯问我，
＂没来学校吗？＂
但是，
完全没收到你的简讯，
是我太贪心吗？
我对你来说是什么呢？
是你要有就有，
没有就没有的吗？
我。。
对你来说到底是什么？
你还爱我吗？
I won't complain about euu not loving me.
Love or not love..
Euu think I can't feel..?
Am I too over?
Did I want euu not to rest and take care of me?
Thanks for calling and ask me whether I wanna eat not.
I had no appetite.
I am sick.
Today..
One whole day.
Breakfast is a orange.
At 4pm plus.
Lunch?
4spoon of soup.
At 6pm plus.
I donwanna say it so obviously.
But can I ask?
Did euu know about it?
Know about I 1 whole day eat Wut?
Don say I never text euu.
I called euu.
Euu ask?
Euu sleep..
Euu know Wut I was doing?
Trying to tolerate the pain I had.
Not saying how much euu don care.
Not saying euu can't sleep.
Hey there.
Hey..
Am I just eur friends?
No.
Eur fren euu would ask how is she.
Like how that xiaozhuzhu sick.
Euu would ask.
" are euu ohkay?"
I think..
Me...?
I am just a stranger to euu..
Rite..?
Sick jiu sick.
Doesn't affect eur life.
Rite...?
I stomache...
I fever..
Keep very cold...
I am in pain...
I die...
Would euu care...?
I keep asking myself..
我不够爱你，还是你不够爱我?
I kept crying..
Kept crying...
In pain..
Waiting for eur reply...
I called euu...
All euu say is..
" I won't reply anymore."
Know why I kept quiet?
Cos I am speechless..
After euu hang up.
I was all alone...
Was all alone..
I had enough...
I donno Wut to do...
Don until I say..
Then euu do..
I told euu..
If euu care,
Euu naturally care...
If euu don care,
Why bother to know and act...?
没必要因为我说，
你才做..
I am tired...
I sleep le...
I cried to sleep after that call.
When I wake..
I don have the energy to wake.
I tried to bathe.
I am like a handicapped.
No energy.
Need to be like Ahma..
Slowly slowly slowly...
Euu know how I felt..?
I was thinking.
I know..
After I post..
Euu will confirm say this.
" I know I not good larh.. Then blarblarblar.."
No.
Euu are good.
It's just that euu don love me anymore.
Not that euu not good.
It's just euu don love me,
That's why automatically euu won't care.
I wanna sleep now..
I wanna think no more.
Ask daddie.
If Mamie sick,
Wut would he do?
Let her cry in pain for his care..?
Or automatically care and ask whether if she's ohkay?
Do ask.
So that I know..
Euu don love me anymore.
One whole day..
Darlingg.
One whole day.
Only one call from euu..
Shock..?
Wanna check..?
I..
Am numb.
I won't..
Ask euu to care anymore.




-Chloe.
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